Separation...

Recently I have been feeling that there is a huge gap between my feminism and my Witchcraft. I am really having a hard time connecting the two together. I have been looking into the Reclaiming and the Dianic traditions of the Craft for guidance. These traditions were the first to have feminism as a large part of its practices. I realized that I need to blaze my own path so that my feminism and Craft can come together. I guess this is the hard part= finding my own path.

I only have one spell in here directed towards my actual practice. I have been more focused on website activism than anything else. I guess because I am not an activist outside my own blog. Maybe my blog will help me find my way in my own practice, too.

I realize that these things take years to accomplish and I am no patient Witch! I think I am a little sick of the same thing; the same words each time I cast a circle, the same words calling the elements, and even the Goddess and God invocations. I need some inspiration and change! Perhaps some spring cleaning will help. I think I might be going about my spirituality wrong. I think I should be changeable within my rituals and spells but cast them at a stable place. See, I like to practice while I am out and walking but I say and think the same things over and over again. The only problem is that my altar is upstairs in my boyfriend’s room and I am rarely alone up there. Not to mention not that quiet.

I do practice while my loverly is out but I go with him practically everywhere! So, I might need to think of something else. I would have to guess that it's the lack of space and privacy. I really do believe that the house that I am living at is not the place for magic. The house is very cluttered and messy. Personally I don't care but magically I feel tapped out. I feel a lot better at my Parents' house. It is the place where I first started practicing Witchcraft.

My conclusion, err, well, I suppose I could set up something outside and do as much as I can. I don't know about my altar upstairs. Every time my boyfriend is around either downstairs or in the room I feel uncomfortable like I am being watched or I am on a time limit. It's not fun. I feel completely stuck. At least I found the right kind of Witchcraft and not so confused as I was before.