When is Your Friend not Your Friend anymore?

I know that there is more pressing things to talk about rather than my dismal relationships, but yesterday and today I have been thinking when is your friends not your friends anymore? Do facebook friends count?

Perhaps not, since I have plenty of facebook 'friends' who aren't really my friends. I have been wondering about my old best friend, the one who apologized for the way he was treating me when we used to hang out together. I had thought that he decided to hang out with me again but it seems that I am wrong. He hasn't mentioned anything in fact he had hurt my feelings.

I posted on facebook that I was accepted by blogsbywomen.org and all he could say was, "No one cares about your blog." I was really crushed. So for the next two days after I was thinking why do I care about what he thinks? Why can't I get over him and move on? There is something keeping me tied to this person who really hurts me. What is it?

I have a boyfriend, my life has totally changed and yet, there is a part of me who wants that friendship that companionship that I thought I had. He was never a really good friend. He always put someone before me. It was always someone else who wouldn't care about him or someone who was looking for a free ride somewhere. And, I was left in the dark.

He was never there when my house burned down (on March 23, 2008) either which was very upsetting and disgusting. I have grown since then, alone. I have dealt with most of my inner problems without any help.

I think it's time to move on from this horrible friendship. I think it's time to just focus on my relationship with Ryan and get on with my life and leave my ex friend behind.