I am a lover of video games. I love making new characters over and over again. Elder Scrolls 4: Oblivion was my favorite and then Dragon Age. Now I am getting in touch with a Sacred 2: Fallen Angel. Today I wanted to finally get down to business and practice my spirituality. When I wanted to focus on some energy work and then finally to a ritual of some sort, all I could think of was what kind of I wanted next. I made an Exalted Warrior, and now I wanted to make a Revered Technology character, equipped with a energy gun no less. I was thinking, "Cool, cool, a unique character it just might work." My boyfriend actually said to me that I should create a new character because I am going to get sick of it and he is right, I do. Sometimes I can't help myself but make a new character.
At first I thought it was just a big cover up for my depression and anxiety. Now I feel detachment from my spirituality whenever I practice and in myself. I feel that I have to play video games because I am not happy with (my) self. I am scattered; I am broken and I am self-medicating myself by playing video games. I love it because I dislike life. Kind of sick isn't it? How I am I going to become whole? As we all know I am a Witch, I love my spirituality, but at this point I feel very stuck and video games makes me feel like I am not so stuck.
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